Guan Gong

Oh!!!! I remembered what happened! And it was months ago! I was thinking that i did not pray to him before, how did he know me.

Then i realise, he has another name 关圣帝君 which i think i see him at thian hock temple before? And i remembered that particular day, i asked all deities for the SAME favor.

No wonder they ask me to resume my duty! Ahhhh!

I lied. I did not go back to their conversation.

Very into checking whose that deity in blue and white robe. And also the ‘helmet’ is more prominent than his clothes. And if i am not wrong, he’s guan gong from qing dynasty? And if its according to this source “the virtues Guan Gong personifies – honor, loyalty, integrity, justice, courage, and strength” – then i know why he is here.

But i still want to confirm it. Bottom line is i still have to call Uncle C and look for taizi. And i need to thank taizi too.

I came back in a piece today

Came back at 10am today. Went at 3am. Was taken back to their place because they couldnt do it over here i think? Have been sick. This week’s probably the most i’ve slept without the help of med.

6 brought me over. No idea wheres the place though it gives me almost the same feeling as the hdb that has small streams at each sides. I only remeber i saw my body being carried away.

I remember asking uncle C if he knows who they are. And he said that i know who they are and why am i asking for the obvious answer.

They are doctors from the other world who will come whenever i am sick. They normally come in multiples of 2. They dressed in white. All of them are very old, look abit like gandalf frm lotr.

Last night i heard a rumor. Was quite shock. But i cant note it down. Heaven’s secret. I might just 4get abt it.

太子’s goin to francis’s house later.. N coincidentally before francis msg me, 太子 asked if i am ready to ask.

No, i am never ready.

Very bored

because i cant watch my pps dramas. Soo…

“二爷爷！！＂
“什么事啦！＂
＂爷爷我很闷啦上来陪我看电视节目。＂
＂不要＂
＂为什么！你现在很忙吗？＂
＂我才不要当你的挡箭牌，等一下你大哥哥下来骂我！＂
＂啊呀！不要这样啦！大哥怎么会骂你呢！你难得来一趟！＂
＂不要不要！你怎么没问你其他的爷爷？＂
＂啊呀。。。＂
＂去睡觉啦！

 

 

Fish market

Last night was my 3rd time that i was whisked to that market. Some vendors still recognised me while there are quite alot of new faces.

The very auntie whose damm fierce, who will scream at anyone who walk past her back of the stall is still there. She dudnt screamed at me this time.

The fish market consists of 2 storeys while the second has an area for people to bid for big fishes & a few stores selling expensive fishes. Reminds me of that fish market in japan.

Clarice #3

Random spirit left a message with the guards that i should check out kranji memorial to see if anyone resembles her. Was jus thinkin of askin him to check, it was as if he expected my question – i was told that the place was protected and he cant go in.

My question is – REALLY??? By who???

We didnt start the fire

After Max agreed to allow her to go home with me for a day, while walking back to my house-

Clarice: WOWWW! Your house is huge! How many rooms are there altogether!
Me: those rooms you see house different families.
Clarice: means?
Me: just take it that all of us are renting these small little rooms, ok?
Clarice: wowwww! Your pool is huge!
Me: no. All those rooms you see, all of us are sharing it.
Clarice: thats a little sad. Isnt it?
Me: run along. I stay over that side. You sleep at the pool.
Clarice: we cant sleep together?
Me: no. We are different, remember? I am not dead, yet.
Clarice: ok
Me: n dont talk to strangers
Clarice: ok!

She also followed me to work today.

Clarice: why are u going in that box
Me: you can go by your way. Count 11 floors.
Clarice: will i see you?
Me: yes. Just call me if u need help.
Clarice: i see many chairs but there isnt anyone there..
Me: walk str8 a lil more
Clarice: that will the sky.
Me: …. The other way.
Clarice: its v smelly
Me: thats the toilet.
Clarice: oh! Its looks different.
Me: times has change.

Had send her back to sp but i think i need to call uncle c. Shes a catholic though.. How ar. I only know taoist way lol. She said she cant cross over just because she cant remember how she died. But i was wondering perhaps her time is not up yet? But what makes me salute her is that she’s innocent. People who are dead for so long normally isnt this innocent.

Ok creepy. I am alone at the bus stop and there are 2 spirits busy zig zagging behind me. Very fun meh!

Back to my point, theory is when you are a baby, you are innocent, but as you grow, you learn (bad) things. She’s supposedly to be 84 this year though. Checked with friends from the other world and seems that nobody knows her.

As usual, the spirits are damm kpo. They stop zig zagging and been reading my mind to ‘read’ what i am writing. They requested help, but i cant do it without names. The most disgusting thing is i only know english & mandarin.

Probably have to take leave to help her. I hope they have after work slots

Water activities?

Just remembered that uncle W said that i should avoid water sports as i will pay a visit to 海龍王, coincidentally, david said the same, but after 54.

Whereas uncle C told me that i’d be safe, thanks to my gift.

Personally, i should be alright. If i am supposed to go, i wont be living right now.

However, my life was saved by ‘Max’ – not his real name. If they think i shld b going after 55, then so be it. But i dont think they will grant my wish of allowing me to go back 🙂

Unfortunately, someone ‘very nicely’ extended my life.

Or this post should b the pros n cons of being gifted & having them as the other family?

One of the cons will be there are too many pair of eyes looking at me. To the person who commented 人在做，天在看。I think you should worry about yourself first? Plus i dont need to report to you. I have enough nannies in both of the other 2 worlds.

The 3 dreams which talks my life?

Cant remember if i wrote this before, i really should check my blog and make notes of what i have not blog. These 3 dreams haunted me every night for more than 10 years until someone in IRC analyzed it for me. I didnt have a chance to thank him though, because the dreams mysteriously stopped.

The first one was about my past life, and i had confirmed this with more than 5 mediums, and they were very annoyed with this question until one of the mediums, with jigong in possessed, “HOW COME MANY TIMES YOU WANT TO ASK! ASK SO MANY TIMES! YES YES YOU DIED AT 5 YEARS OLD! AIYO! DO YOU HAVE OTHER THINGS TO ASK!” – I looked at him blankly, while the rest of the people jumped with fright. Later telling me that nobody has made jigong shout like this before, and i’m not anywhere near being guilty.

Anyway, the dream shows a huge mansion, its white in colour, there’s a garage at the basement, it houses more than 5 cars, there are rolls royce in brown. Mercedes, Bentley and i cant remember the rest, but they are all luxury cars. I’m the youngest in the family, with 1 full time nanny taking care of me, and many maids. The house is huge, with more than 20 rooms i think? Its like a maze in that house. There are 2 kitches, one is for the chefs, and the other is for us, me and my siblings to cook. I dont cook but there is this housekeeper who always make breakfast for us, me and my brothers. Them going to school while i get to play the whole day (duh).

There is this driveway from the garage to the gate of the house, its quite a distance, and despite being scolded everyday, i still love playing at the driveway. (damm goondu right). I remembered having some sisters, but we dont talk, because of our age gap, they were already working by then. I was 5. Oh and i was a boy! And everytime i woke up in a shock when i saw the car coming out of the driveway, and i was running after my ball, with the nanny screaming behind me, CAR CAR CAR, but i think my ball was more important? Next moment i knew, i was dead.

(For the longest time, i wondered which country was i from, asked many mediums but none was willing to reveal, until i was 20+, watching some taiwanese drama, then it occured to me that i might be a Taiwanese before. When i was born, my parents taught me how to call my dad as in dad, father, papa etc. I will look at them blankly. Until one day, when my dad was back from work, i sprang from the bed and shouted 爸比. My parents were shocked but also asked me what is that, but i didnt know how to explain. Thus, from that day onwards, thats how i call my dad. Some of my primary school friends used to tease me about it, saying why am i calling my dad a “puppy” but it isnt! !@#$ !!! Ahh so now all you readers will know 🙂 )

I miss that house alot. Although my parents are only back once a year, i’m closest with the brothers, who will always play with me after they are back from school. And we ate together everyday and they tucked me to bed every night. My parents from past life did visited me when i was young. Oh and Uncle W taught me to chant and i told them that i am happy in here, and they should let go of me and go reincarnate. They didnt believe i was happy though, i guess they know what i went through. But it will be very selfish of me to keep them here with me, isnt it? They were sorry about not spending time with me and my silbings, and they only manage to find me. It was a weird night i remember – i didnt know who were they at first, but i cried buckets when i saw them and i managed to mutter “mum? dad? is that you? are you here to see me? Why are you here? Shouldnt you reincarnate already?”

So what am i? A set of parents here on earth, grandpas, from the other 2 worlds, and another set of parents from my past life? Anyway, i tried my best to assure them that their little boy (me) is happy, it didnt work. In the end, it was the chanting that help i think? Because i dont see them already. Sad hor?

2) The second one shows a path with fire. I was walking on it. There is blue and green fire. If you dont know what i mean, when you light a matchstick, you’ll be able to see the colors. Even though i can feel the heat at some area of the path, my feet are not burnt at all, and there is also 2 guards who were beside me, holding onto me. And there was this black tall gate which i couldnt open, there is still fire after the gate, but its not as strong as what i am stepping onto now.

The person told me its my life i am going through now. I have some 贵人 in my life who will help me in my lousiest times.

(About this, Edward & Uncle W who read my palm, both told me that i’ll have at least one person who’ll help me if i cant find anyone at all, be it secretly or in open. I have. Last week at meeting i had Michael who spoke for me, and that auntylala who accompanied me to the IT show after my begging like siao. And also breathless who helped me at the very last minute to rephrase sentences. HENG MAN. Plus i dont know where i get the luck from, to know the coolest + creative people in mwl. Before i join the SSS group, i was very down about some failed friendships, being used and taken for granted.

I have many friends, I know many people. But my friendship doesnt last. I dont really have that kind of money to go out with people everyday, i eat at home alot. When i was younger, even though i worked and earn my pocket money, i dont have enough to feed myself, i had this secondary bestie, shi hui, who used to feed me, because i didnt have enough to eat, while her pocket money is 3 times more than me! =x Then i have sharon & belfred & ira in poly, the usuals, i dont really hang out with them after school. Then i have Mel, Dan & Belle in RMIT. We havent been talking much already. The only unfortunate friend which i am still really in contact with and me always niaming at her will be auntylala. Haa. Other than the people whom i knew in MWl, a new friend would be breathless, )

Back to the dream, he doesnt know what does the black gate stands for, but probably cross roads?

3) Third dream is a path filled with red candles. Breezy air and i was able to breathe normally.

That person deduced that my 3rd life in earth will be a good one. No more of the bullshit which i am going through now. I hope so! Or at least give me 1 life is enough, as in, only problems on earth, not on the 3 worlds.

These 3 dreams normally start when i sleep, and end at 5.30 – 6am when i wake up for school. While sometimes, i cant even wake up.

2 nights ago..

I was brought to a shop, the shop looks just like any other normal shop. In the daytime, it operate as a herbal shop, on some rare times, its a shop that sells black magic stuff / ingredients for it.

I dont know how i know that young man, but in that space, we seems to be really good friends. Just like sometimes i’m astonished to hear spirits talking about me like as if they have known me for decades, and most are very willing to help me, if i need or want. But i wouldnt allow. That would just meant they have to stay in hell / underworld longer. The reason i have different names for hell, is because not everywhere in hell is hell. There are very nice places in hell, which i will call it the underworld. There are houses, nice tea shops, food etc

So back to the story, the young man’s master saw me going into the shop and asked if i need any herbal med. Actual conversation is in Mandarine, but there are some people here who cant really read..

Young man: Shifu.. she’s my friend. I’ve brought her to see you. She’s of legal age now.
Me: HUH! What legal age! What are you talking abt!
Young man: You are 26 now right? If i didnt count wrongly, but anyway, meet my master!
Me: Err.. hello. (i also notice that he has a gold fingernail encrusted with 3 black diamonds in a row on his right hand. And people with normal eyes will not be able to see, but he has so many soldiers guarding the shop, and they are not normal spirits, they seems to have some authority)
Master: So, what can i do for her?
Young man: Shifu, can you tell any difference about her and us.

The master walked out from his counter and advanced towards me, he took a closer look at me and he suddenly “YOU ARE A HUMAN! HOW DID U COME IN HERE! YOU ARE NOT NORMAL!”

He was damm loud, a little too loud. He quickly ask his assistant to close the shop for the day so he can closely examined me.

Young man: Master.. shhh. you are too loud. I secretly brought her here. And she has no idea who you are.
Master: young lady, do you know what i am selling here?
Me: You are a black magician, your soldiers are not normal spirits.
Master: Do you know you can have them too? Do you know a normal human being cant come here? Want to join me?
Me: Dont want.
Master: HUH! I dont offer this to anyone!
Me: You have him. (I pointed to the young man)
Master: No you are different! How did u even come here in the first place?!
Me: you should ask him, he brought me here. (I didnt say i cant control myself in there, so afraid i’ll be stuck there)
Young man: shifu.. i’ll explain later. Maybe give her some time to think? I’ll bring her back next time.
Master: Young lady, i can see you are fascinated with my things here.
Me: Aye, what is that turning thing down there.
Master: What turning thing? (i can see that he’s pretending)

I went towards the turning thing, its a very long thing, its enormous too.

Master: Are you sure you dont want to join us? Learn from me. I gurantee you’ll be one of the top black magicians. How did u see the thing is turning. Only special eyes can see its turning.

Me: Oh please. Dont bother trying. I am clear. I will not be part of your team. I’m not interested to be one.
Master: Its a waste, you know. Go. Go back to your world and think about it. Although i can see that your heart already belong to guan yin. But, humans are greedy, and you need money now. Look at your family. Think about it. I’ll be very happy to teach you all that i know, with my 6 other brothers. You dont need to give me anything, we need someone like you to take care of us.

Me: No. Not interested.

So we left by the stairs, we passed by some shops selling clothes then into one of the portals. Along the way, the young man was encouraging me to join, i walked quietly. Before i walked into the portal, he smiled and told me “we’re still friends. No matter which path you go to. You can always come here to look for me. You’ll know my name when you die.” I walked with my usual escorts and i came back.

Seriously, is there any history of the black magicians books anywhere at all??? I dont care if this is the illusion painted by the spirits in hell whose being trying to murder me since young, and since they didnt succeed in making me go mad either. I know they are trying to recruit me, by offering me the best army they have, unlimited cash but seriously, its not worth it. Why should i enjoy now and suffer later. Its dumb.

Anyway, i cant name you this place. I dont know where it is. Its defiinitely not hell. Hell is not so dry. The atmosphere is different from the underworld too. The ground is different.