In the past, i threw tantrum in hell whenever i was pissed off with people on earth and terrorised everyone.

Now i throw tantrum on earth. Even though i looked like i am cursing alot in this space but it isnt alot. Its more like gek die inside me.

When people throw tantrum, its noisy. When i throw tantrum, i request audience with the bigger shots and kept quiet LOL.

They asked if its new tactic LOL. But i appreciate the presence. How can anyone be so rude & arrogant when he has nothing??? Really really no logic.

The fire is still burning in me like i cant wait to deport him to India. Although i looked calm AF. He can be burnt together with A.Yang. Both waste earth’s resources.

The tiger

It was funny. It only sense me when i was opening the cupboard.

And it wasnt a fierce 誰? It was a shit-someone-is-in-but-unhurt-how-can-that-be.

I had the same ‘是我啦!’

I dont know how many people will report their title & name but i really cant be bothered.

The intruder. Lol! Or trespasser.

Lets get you home.

I dont know why i started to miss him this morning till now. The scene of ‘are you in there??!’ & ‘lets get you home’ replayed in my mind.

Among so many jobs i had, he’s that rare person who went back to look for me & to make sure i am home safely. Its not his responsibility, neither would he get an extra point, he did it anyway.

Probably its the feeling of shittyness of how am i going to get out of it, he came back.

I think i am missing that feeling instead.

***

I am such a shoe whore. Shit. I bought another 2 pairs of shoes.

Alot of times, people are desperate when it comes to death, especially their loved ones. They are willing to do anything in exchange.

Harsh reality. I never like dealing with deaths since it takes a toll on me too. But its my job.

I still prefer working at the back end.

***

Received a case last night. It was referred. That person was asked to find me because i am the only one who will normally go the extra mile for people & the fastest to get things done since i have more access than others.

It was comical when that person asked whats my price since i am well known for being beyond expensive.

It was as if these 2 were prepared. Money can be earned. Priceless favors are… Priceless.

But i cant think of anything at the moment except for the arrogant 目中無人。

** i think i am beyond pissed off. I dont tell 九皇爺 stuff unless its over. And this is over. How is that he deserve a job when he has zero respect for ground staff.

They are not friends for nothing.

Is that how you call it?

A group visited as i made my way home. I didnt tell them i was bullied. Instead i asked normally what happens to the person who cant talk properly and shouts at the lowest in the hierarchy? This person also said he knows many people.

Friend 1: does he know who you are?

Me: no lah.

Friend 1: then how can he say he knows many people?

Friend 2: Does he know who he has offended?

Me: well according to him, he doesnt need to care because I am only the admin of the company.

Friend 2: means not big shot enough ah?

Me: yeah. He will only talk to high ranking people.

Friend 1: you not high ranking enough?

Me: i am only the admin wor.

Friend 2: thats a lousy assumption.

Friend 3: i am damm sure she will tell her grandfathers about it + 九皇爺 that she was shouted it plus degrading her.

Friend 1: Please tell him if he doesnt know you at all. Hes not influential. Without peanuts, i dont think paperwork or his commission can get through.

Friend 2: are you sure shes a peanut?

Friend 3: wrong girl to offend.

Friend 1: it would never cross his mind that you are working at the lowest level of the hierarchy, given who you are.

Friend 3: thank god you were not from the dark force, else i dont think he can step out alive. Then again, now we know what hes all about.

Me: i pass his name to S leh.

Friend 2: wahhhhhhhhh!!! Is that worse than losing voice?

Me: i am not him. How do i know.

My life has been happening.

Just that i am not sure if i should update here since its earthly matters. I am thankful for all the listening ears i have – thanks for the unconditional service you guys have been giving me.

I am glad i am in this shit though. You cant grow up if you dont go through shit. At the same time, i am relieved that the young engineer didi is a true blue engineer – i mean in so many companies ive jumped to, i havent met any engineers who disappoint me.

All in all, judgement day tomorrow to settle that 目中無人的王八蛋。

***

Spent my weekends in boonlay because i needed sleep. Thats the only safe place though… I saw some thing which i am not supposed to see.. N i forgot to take the picture.

Does it mean my grandmother is leaving soon? – i am not sad la.

***

Sometimes i cant help but to think how ignorant how humans are – those who didnt see 大場面 before.

Word spread fast, to a place i didnt expect. The palace.

Its considered a small issue but i am anxious to know how the boss on earth will handle. The events i’ve gone through is so much worse than this.

Oh the best part all of us were laughing at was when he said i am just an admin in the  to company, and in no position to talk to him, or to ask him things.

He’s dead meat. Just like all other souls who wanted to prove they are innocent in front of the judges, and i was the assessor. And they did it again. Oh oh.

THIS IS FUN.

And this smelly human wants to show off his rights. I am game! – I dont know where i get the blind courage from – was it from all those bad experiences with the dark forces? Funny that guandi’s ka kia said that i cant wait to add complains on him, even though i dont need to, since whatever shit i do is recorded to prevent anyone accusing me.

Met up with the friends, not the palace people but the friends. None of them wanted to discuss about the smelly human. They met me to discuss work.

Me: Do i really have to apologise?

V: Why? I thought you have zero pride liao after so many things happened to you. Say sorry dont have to mean it de la. And the palace people will settle it i think.

A: I think she wants us to settle it. But no, that guy is not a challenge leh.Flick it like a housefly and he’s gone.

Me: …….. HELLO ARE YOU GUYS HAVING PRIVATE DISCUSSION.

A: Dude can you move him to another place so he doesnt waste resources here.

Me: Move him to other region can? And strike off his name in my list of people leh.

V: Does it means you dont even want to give him a second chance?

Me: Eh he already know what he did is wrong and he already know what he is going through is karma. Then why do it when he knows its wrong? Then why should i even take such soul? Bo tio you know.

AU: Where shall we move him to?

Me: How about india? He doesnt like indians right?

V: HAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!! So bad!

Me: Eh transfer his name to S, tell S its from me. Need her to settle him.

AU: She doesnt take cases.

Me: I know. Just tell her its from me.

AU: She owes you something?

Me: Not at all.

AU: Then why will she help you with such case.

Me: Its meeeeee.

V: Wait. If she helps you, will you owe her anything? If thats the case, i will not agree.

Me: No la, dont worry. She knows the princess’s character.

V: OH! You guys met?

Me: Once. Long time ago. I dont think i am easily forgotten.

A: You arent. But why will she remember you if you didnt help her before.

Me: I am special. Then why did all of you stayed despite my temper in the past. SAME MAH.

AU: Different………………

V:  We kinda like working with you despite you disappearing too often. But you will somehow make yourself avaliable when we need to see you. No?

Me: No.

A: You got to go shower soon and head out. Very late liao. The palace will definitely settle so, dont worry. And i know you want to have some fun with him. We will pass the name to S. Do we need to bring anything extra?

Me: Bring a vase. That will do.

Ongoing lesson or burden.

TL: I do not want her in my team. She has zero background of what we do. And she cant run as fast as us. No martial arts background.

The team lead wasnt happy when the trainer introduced me to her. The rest are under her command & none of them were looking at me lol!

Trainer: She is joining the team. No arguements. Besides you are the one who requests for someone. And you know none wants to work with you. She’s new.

TL: EXACTLY. Why would i want a dumb bitch!

Trainer: She passed the training grounds in 30mins, if you insists she’s new. And you being an old seasoned player, how can you not solved it in years.

TL: thats not possible!

Trainer: Shes not new to this scene. I will leave it to her to introduce herself though i dont think she would. You guys are free to do background checks on her but you wont be able to find anything.

TL: this is why i said shes new! She doesnt deserve us!

‘Actually we dont deserve her, i will take care of her. I recognise her ring. But i will let her do the introduction when you are ready.’ – a boyish voice came from the back. And this boy whose a little shorter than me, otherwise about the same height.

The trainer winked, at me.

TL: shes a burden!

The boy: We need her.

TL: Not me.

The boy: then you will lose me as well. She can finish jobs solo & we cant. Dont you think we dont deserve her at all? Arent we her responsibility instead?

TL: you just met her! What makes you so sure!

The boy: that ring on her finger. Only 3 has that.

TL: why dont you get one then.

The boy: i cant. There are too many things i cant handle.

TL: then shes a fake.

The boy: could you remove your ring?

I smiled. I knew what experiment he wants.

I handed him my ring.

The boy to his TL: you have seen me holding it. Now you try to hold it if you think this is a fake.

The moment the team lead tried to hold it, it disappeared and went back to my finger.

TL: this is nonsense!

The boy: its on her finger. If you are the team lead, how is it you havent heard of this. And i know this ring owner doesnt do recruiting. I would be glad to grab this opportunity to take care of her in here.

***

Before whatever happened:

Me: Are you crazy! I dont want to work with her!!

Trainer: you will be able to remove that arrogance in her.

Me: what about zixing?

Trainer: she did say you are a better candidate. You know she’s softer. That team lead is too arrogant for her.

Me: Are you trying to make use of my identity!!!! Nooooooo!

Trainer: You have to take this. If Zixing commented you are a better candidate, you are.

Me: I would give face to her BUT!

Trainer: No buts. I am sure someone in the team will help you.

Me: Thats her strongest team member… He cant possibly be thinking to piggyback me and run.

Trainer: He can. And you 2 make a better team. Unleash potential.

Me: ………..

Trainer: you will be fine.

Me: She will explode.

Trainer: When she knows about your identity, maybe she will. Shes too arrogant for her own good.

Me: Upper management didnt bother too.

Trainer: AHEM!

Me: i am not part of it leh. Since when?

Trainer: ……

Me: Is this group part of my kpi?

Trainer: Its the TL kpi. You have the rights to torture her but i dont think you have time to play with her.

Me: Is she considered seasoned?

Trainer: no. I know what you want to ask. Her position comes from the family, similar as yours.

Me: but how did she stay in her position for so long?

Trainer: her mates. But she has less than 5. You will decide her fate but we are not telling her that.

Me: ahhh upper management knows?

Trainer: zixing submitted your name.

Me: omg. She must be kidding!

 

I also met up with the friends.

We kinda envy each other gifts & we find nothing cool about our own. The grass is greener at the other side.

I envy the one who can see people past because you would understand instantly why that nicest person you ever knew has terminal illness.

And the one who envy me knows the age of that person will pass away at.

Just because when i step into a building, the layout of it will appear, stats and all will be revealed.

Very cool meh?

5 of us agreed that its very taxing but useful when we needs it. I dont know we meet to grumble or to share experiences – we have never work together before.

 

Nyc

I think its the end, although he did finish the so called time laspe, or whatever you call.

He said his clone & i wont ever get to meet if we kept talking haha. He’s worried while i am worried who am i saying ‘come and save me’ to.

Precious 4 words.