If you have the ability to change things…

Anyone would do something to avoid a divorce right….

Its either the divorce which i’ve got rid of it… and now the consequences.

I’ve missed my 4 brothers and friends in other realms and my home in my entire life, but they are almost unreachable. And now the person i am missing is almost reachable but not.

Why is missing a human so different and so difficult compared to home and the other family.

Its just 1 year 8 months and i will be out of the shiz. Cant i be stronger than before.

Why is karma a religion thing??

Since when???

Whenever people ask me to protect myself first… well… am i really protecting myself or am i adding bad karma to myself??? Again, its an angle that normal humans wont think of it – this is really all from working with the dead people. The dead people always give logical advice, things that wow why didnt i thought of it!

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About the latest episode, i had a good laugh. Its not a positive event, but i laughed anyway. I understood now why i am asked not to read, and if i read, to keep my mouth shut. Although i find it too irrelevant… the funny part is THAT BOOK!!! The book has my exact SAME sentence!! I will not blog that line, well, if i did, it will be under password post. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!　Ｔｏｏ　ｆｕｎｎｙ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｔｒｕｅ!! I did laugh my head off while the soldiers who dont know me looked at me… bewildered.

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Last night, i played. The fairy sister whose always wearing yellow came to find me with her special carriage, after i complained many times that i rather walk than sit in one. She brought her special one lol! So that i would obediently follow her into it. She wanted to change my dressing before we go to the destination. It started with pink and yellow and it looked so weird!! Then it became blue and purple, then purple pink, then yellow and green. It looks the best, but when she realised i havent change my shoes, and somehow the shoes are xxx so in the end i wore xxx instead. After all her effort of xxx. I also realised her maids are different, when i hop into the carriage, my clothes will somehow change… and then when i hop out, it will change too. I was hopping in and out until she was annoyeed and asked me not to make her maids busy. LOL.

I cant say where we go. But its awesome!!!!!!!! The feast was good! Life of a xxx. Ahahahah!! I was so full this morning. I miss my family…. 😦 Its the kind of feeling where nobody will judge me when i am not in my usuals. And nope, last night’s topic doesnt consists of any humans if you are wondering. Thats how unimportant humans are. LOL. No la. There are more important things than to discuss about earthly matters.

The brothers are doing a seperate one though. Told them i wanted to eat prison food. Ahahahahahhaa!!　Ａｎｄ　ｎｏ,　ｉｔｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｗｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ　ｔｈｉｎｋｉｎｇ　ｏｆ.　Ｉ　ｍｉｓｓ　ｔｈａｔ　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｄｏｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉ　ａｍ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｔｈａｔ　ｐｌａｃｅ　ｆｏｒ　ａｗｈｉｌｅ..　

Before i feel tired… there’s this lady.. after talking to her on whatsapp…

I am hungry…

She reminds me of someone in the imperial kitchen… I dont know what the name.. but i call it imperial kitchen.. because there are too many people preparing just 1 dish, and again not anyone can enter. Why so many weird access??

Dont ask me how i enter the kitchen.

That’s the place i found different desserts… after eating it, i will go back to hell to find the fat chef and tell him about it and ask him to replicate. The taste is very different as the ingredients used are very different.

The fat chef will always start the meal with his signature noodles and ALL the ingredients i can eat, and then end off with a dessert (but normally fail, then i will ask the triplets to finish it, and i will roll over to the other store and ask the aunty at the counter to give me some edible dessert…)

 

Miss home.

Again.

These few days.

Didnt sleep yesterday. Was split into 5 different places.

Had 2 soldiers visited me yesterday. I think we are more like friends than a boss-soldier relatonship, which i am so thankful for.

Its like no matter what happens, we will always be there. Missing the times we worked together and go for inspection together. And they will always buy me that red long taste like candy food because i couldnt go buy such things on the street when i am on an official inspection.

GAH. I WANT TO GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!

Miss home

A friend asked me how can she apply to be one of the guards / soldiers in hell.

Honestly i have no idea.

But why would anyone want to be a guard / soldier in hell?

Because i am missing home a little too much now, nobody dares to come near me today. Nobody wants to see my tears dropping. Not in front of them. Its strange that we have this channel that we can hear each other, see what each other is doing even when we are worlds apart.

Its funny to see them ‘pushing’. It will be great if 4 of them can apply for ‘visa’ to visit me. The conversation is making me laugh tho.

Ray: you go and see her leh. She’s looking at her com and i am sure she is refusing to sleep lor.

Jam: You go leh. Coax her to sleep earlier leh. She listens to you more leh.

Max: Eh why not you go. Since you have been taking care of her.

Wil: Dont like that leh. Even though i am the youngest now, dont push to me. I dont want to see her cry. And yet i cant do anything. Its against the rule you know.

Max: You guys go leh. I am not sure what i will do if i see her?

Ray: I dont want to go alone leh. Can ask her butler to go and see her?

Jam: He wont leave that place de la. He die die will guard her from that place.

Jam: How. One of us have to go lor. Else she will not sleep again. Sleeping to her is a disaster. Cannot go home and still must work. And somemore her special cloak kena confiscated. Faster leh. Its very late over there liao.

Me: Hi. I can hear everything you know.

Ray: Yes? We are still deciding. Why dont you switch off your laptop and go lie down? We will be there shortly.

Wil: AISEH! 大哥就是大哥。

Me: I will sleep de lah. Later. I am just… you know…

I miss home

The kind of family warm that i will never get it here.

To sleep in my own bed, wake up in the midst of the brothers asking me to work.

And the soldiers who have been with me for the past 1000years?

The only soldiers who can stand my behavior, and weird attitude etc. Where i can come back safely every time, where i fall sick every time and when i wake up in the middle of the night, there will be a doctor to soothe me.

The soldiers who never call me by my rank because i am uncomfortable with it, and allow me to go out with them as a commoner and never once bao toh me. They are more than being soldiers-soldiers ba.

Well sooner or later. I am being asked to go for another round of mission. This time, hmmm… northern Malaysia i think. At the forest. To check on some things. And i need soldiers.

Tpk offered to lend me some. But in exchange of not eating duck. Its difficult. I didnt say yes. Duck is my favorite meat. Although it is wrong, but what other meat can i eat.

Last night there was Max who took care of me. So i slept 2 nights in a row. I am so sian. Of leading 2 lives at the same time. That’s what i feel. Abit tired. And i rather go back to where i belong.

And  also know one of the secrets that i want to know. Or rather there is no secret. It has been there ever since just that i didnt look at it. Just doubtful of is that really mine. Its odd that i can tell the years of how long the amulet has been there with the owner.

And… every amulet / talisman can talk. Just like every tool. So for years i’ve been wondering whats my role up there. I think i have the answer?  Actually i never knew such kind of role exist. Watched the tv and stuff, is fascinated by it. But never really thought that it exist plus me?

Still, there are other mysteries. Like why am i so close with the brothers. I dont think they have a real sister in the first place? And how is it that i am friends with guan di. Doesnt make sense. If i am that young little brat with that kind of low ranking, how is it that i have the honour of drinking that tea at that i cant remember the name mountain.

Each time i drink, i feel different when i came back.

Although its not alot of times lah.

I think more times are spent drinking with the grandfathers. 美味的酒。

Its so 香 when you open up the lid. Totally unlike the english alcohol now where the hole is long and small. And the smell comes in tiny notes.

Cry until migraine. Whenever i hear people saying they are homesick, tell me about it.

I feel you. Want to go home so badly.

Oh and the elder brother Ray gave me a new cloak for hell. Its not spoiled but somehow, he sewed? Sew?! Ya my face was like huh, my prev cloak is not even spoiled, its usable. So now i have 2 cloaks. Abit duno which one to wear, one is given by 王母娘娘，and now Ray made one for me. And plus the pink one where Max given it to me for me to go up. That brought a smile to my lips even though i am so far away.

Large drapey of cloth were hanging on top of me when i woke up.

Not pastel coloured tho, its all dark coloured.

Strange combi.

I was at another place, no idea where. Lay there for awhile, when i woke up again, i was back at my own house.

The decor over there looks Perisian, or rather the furniture, but definitely a girl’s room, though the room is HUGE, the bed is King’s size i think? I was alone in the room though. But i remembered the smile i had when i woke up in that room.

Miss home but i cant do anything. The saying still goes, was it a mistake to bring me home that night?

Ahhh.. that faithful night.

想念哥哥，…

想念哥哥，想念家。

我想回家。

回七宫主那，回哥哥那，回玉帝那。

想家。

Samuel sent Timothy to accompany me. For the whole day.

After i ps him last night, though he did send someone to send me home.

Came back at 8am today, but went back again at 8.30am. Then came back at 10.30am.

Timothy for accompanying me reminds me when i am at home, where everyone is too busy to accompany me, and i always end up sleeping at one of the gardens.

I miss these places

The open field where grass is so tall and you can get lost in it // the glass staircase in the hotel that leads to the lobby // the laundry room in the hotel where i used to hide when i am in a bad mood // every morning you can find me in the kitchen sucking up to talkcocksingsong with the chef so i can be the tester of the day // at noon i’ll be napping at one of the hotel rooms so Keesley my boss cannot find me because THERE ARE OVER 1000 rooms KWA KWA KWA // at evening i’ll be at the rooftop smelling some sunshine with danny // and taking showers in Charine’s room

Maybe seeing Danny is a bad mistake. Made me miss him even more. And the gang.