Tio blocked again

Fresh in my mind. But i am unable to blog about it.

So does it mean its protecting him? Is his identity as secretive as mine?

Jade & 五弟

Jade: 還好吧？

Me: 還可以。

Jade: 誰幫了你？

Me: 弟弟。

Jade: 他？

Me: 是那個他。

Jade: 不错。

Me: 那。。可以不可以。。

Jade: 你要那麼地拼命嗎。

Me: 哥哥也一樣嗎？

Jade: 他非常地疼你。

Me: 我和弟弟的感情還好吧？

Jade: 你還是很擔心吧？會比你四哥好很多。這個放心吧。你弟弟的事，我尽量安排。

Love vows

And I felt that. Last night. Laugh die me. I felt that we were exchanging love vows. In a different way.

It was funny when he said he’s sure I can feel it. The feeling is like telling your twin don’t cb. Crude but yes. That’s how we are in the other world.

I tried thinking back. Did I feel anything? Well. Brotherly love still exist. Grateful that he’s around.

Likewise, I know he’s uber grateful that afternoon although both of us didn’t say anything after that. And I think we are pretty generous with ‘I love you’. It certainly bring back memories.

4 of us have baby faces.

I intend to keep it this way.

HAHAHAHAHA!!

另外两位老兄，你们在哪里？？

There are friends asking what if there are people who pretends to be my brother – firstly, theres no priviledges being my brother. Secondly, i am damm troublesome.

Who the hell want to be my brother. He will be so lugi.

I say it like its a bad thing. Luckily we have too many secrets together soooo its not possible to pretend.

Plus i am not the pretty kind (here) to attract anyone. (Yes i am damm chio at the other side, so different that #5 asked if i am really his sister) because i am fat here. I dont think i will ever forget the scene, especially when he said why the smack is the same kind as his fat sister.

Talk about being fat. W offered #5 a fat paycheck if he can influence me to slim down.

So duh lor! That will never happen. Its always no.2 & no.4 dream. Max knows i love to stuff my face too much lol!

The ultra protective brother

I was yawning badly last night and didnt want to sleep.

Friends of W were wondering what to do with me when W says no KO-ing. I was surfing the web aimlessly.

Max came in the end, the minute i saw him entering the door, i shut down my laptop and went to bed. By the time he’s in my room, i am lying on my bed with lights off.

W’s friends were amazed.

R: Will you do anything to her like Ray if you see her not sleeping?

Max: No.

E: Will you scold her?

Max: No.

L: Then will you KO her?

Max: No, she knows she’s beyond tired and she will sleep the minute she sees me through that door.

A: I am amazed! We spent 3 hours coaxing her!

K: Do you still kiss her?

Max: Yes? BUT NO KISSING HER YOU GUYS.

K: Well that was really young back then.

Max: !! NO.

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I wonder what would the human no.3 brother do to the boyf if i have one next time. LOL.

If i managed to meet him at all.

W

His friends came, 6 of them, who were worried that i will feel alone since i am really alone this week. And also because the brothers couldnt make it. We grocery shopped together. And then we realised we have very different taste, and they commented that i’ve grown up. Really grown up and very vocal.

W checked on me too. And asked his friends whether they could spare time for me on the weekends. So that i have someone that i can talk to.

W: Hey guys! Could you guys accompany my sister? I totally cant make it.

K: We are already here dude.

W: Hows it?

L: She has grown up. Mygod.

W: That bad?

K: Not that bad. We get along fine. But she has grown to be a weirdo or rather she said she’s different.

W: In her defense, she grew up with 4 brothers. All 4 very different brothers.

A: HAHAHAHAHAHAA! Its amusing when you defended her.

W: Its called brotherhood.

E: Did you see her choice of clothes?! Its.. odd.

W: I am sure she tells you guys that i am the one who influenced her on streetwear, the second brother has that classy but sometimes ah beng taste, and then there’s number 3… you know he’s in between.

E: And that’s what you call odd.

L: We will take care of her, make sure she eats.

W: That’s the only thing i worry. Other than that, i am not that worried. If she wants to drink…

R: We will take care of that. I am sure 6 of us can handle her. HAHAHAHAHA!

L: She’s still a handful.

W: That’s cos shes comfortable with you guys.

E: Its considered that we grew up together too! Although shes quiet with us.

W: She’s better now, isnt she?

R: Definitely more vocal. She found her voice.

A: I rather she spend some time with herself, some alone time with her music.

L: Eh W, did she tell you she brought home something with her?

W: NO.

Me: Bao toh!

W: What did you bring home?

Me: Nothing. I am just trying out to see if it works.

W: Is that what i think it is?

Me: I am home when i do it.

W: No doing for others next time. That one i give face. Ask permission before you do for anyone else.

Me: !!!

W: I am serious. You know you are not supposed to do it for anyone.

Me: He’s not anyone.

W: Just him. No more. Only we know what will happen.

Me: Let me try. Its only 1 morning of each week.

W: If you do it every morning…

Me: It will be so strong right!!!!! :)))

W: Next time.

Me: So you approve?!

W: You will do whatever to protect him, you inherit that from Max. Max said the same to us when you were just a kiddo, it will be his loss if you dont believe him at the end. And you said the same thing to us about #5.

Me: But why is it that nobody wants to take him.. other than our friends, wrong. Other than my friends. Fluffy’s owner came!

W: Cac said okay?

Me: YA! He offered! As my xxth present! Advance!

W: That’s new. You know the weirdest people. And well, if #5 have Cac as backup, there isnt much to worry about.

Me: And his dog is SO FIERCE.

W: Best part is you call him Fluffy, and he actually responds to you. Even till today.

Me: I prefer my own dog ANYTIME. She’s the best!

W: DUH. The only one, other than us, the brothers, whose so willing to guard you as long as it takes.

Me: I love her forever.

W: Anyway, enjoy while it lasts.

Max

He tucked me to bed, kissed me goodnight. Came back to check on me after 30minutes. Tucked me to bed again. Makes sure i sleep. And then he goes off.

Every night.

How to have a boyf.

Family Tree

I finally understand why I get along so well with Max, why Ray and I only talk when necessary, why Jam & #5 gets along so well, why Max and W got close, why #5 and me are friends from the start till the beginning, why Ray & Jam are close.

After drawing the chart, it dawn upon me that all of us are in pairs. And our age gap is 1 – 2 years apart. Other than that, the age difference between me and the brothers are in odd numbers, except for the oldest.

I never really thought about reading our age so in-depth, and our zodiacs. Now I kinda understand why I am so forgiving towards #5 and not #4, why Max is extremely giving to me.

I’ve never thought so much about it until last night.

And I have no idea how to tell #5 that I have a deadline next year straight after CNY 2015. Everyone has been stressing me about his drinking problem. I wondered if Max went through worse path than me? In many ways, #5 and I are too similar. We never listen to people unless the person made it subtle enough that it sounds like its our own. Just like Max. I just feel I am not up to the job.

I did talked to Ron about #5, although he said there isn’t a need to worry. I STILL WORRY. Ron and I went through thick and thin so well, its different. Cannot compare.

I am just worrying it will be like #4 and I. Although 99% of the people told me its not possible, because even at the other world, #5 and I don’t fight at all. No arguments at all.

Ok. I am damm tired.

Unhook her

Found myself in a huge temple.

Assignment last night was okay.

Whats reality?

Wanted tpk to tell me i am thinking too much. Or dream too much.

And then he said its reality.

我不要！！！